Taking Seroquel a Whole New Way

Here's what I think about the product of the year around 10.30 pm. Things were spiraling badly today--depression and all the black thoughts that come with it of course. So I did what work I could, went home and popped a Seroquel. I hadn't taken one since July and the pill took me down quickly. I slept four hours straight, awoke, was groggy and cognitively slowed downnnnnnn, couldn't type, couldn't face the thought of staying awake several more hours before sleeping naturally and being hassled by the blackness. So I popped another. I will be signing off any moment now.

But first: I think I will adapt and use Seroquel the way I used Mellaril in the 1990s. I used to take Mellaril back then to knock down these same blacknesses. I'd take the pills for a couple-three days tops and just try to ride the bus back to normalcy. That's the way the doc wanted it and that's the way I liked it. I'd get back to normal soon enough. Then, I'd ignore the Mellaril pills until the next time they were needed, usually about six months out. Impotence, grogginess, cognitive slowing: I could handle all of those for a few days in exchange for getting back to the happy mean in my life. But with Seroquel, the docs, pharma companies, policymakers and society in general want us to take the pills all the time, for life. With two years of Seroquel under my belt--literally!--that is not a deal I am willing to accept as a conscious actor in the universe. I'll forfeit days, but not a lifetime. And, so, now, I will only take Seroquel a bit at a time--it doesn't knock down depression and mania all the time, so why would I take it all the time? Good night.